i got two weeks vacation and i decided to go to bar harbor where they have acadia national park. i brought my girlfriend shannel, she said she’s never been to the ocean. it was my mission to bring her to the coast and let her touch it! i loved seeing the sites myself but i felt a lot more enjoyment watching shannel be such a cute little tourist.
we arrived really late at night and had just wondered through acadia trying to find a camp site. unfortunately we could only stay one night. we found another camp site in bar harbor for cheap. the whole trip didnt have a solid plan or anything, we just took our time and wandered.
We ended the trip with whale watching. incredible stuff.
A few weeks ago I was able to get some footage for a project I’m working on, I can’t give much detail but I’m super stoked about it because I love photographing nature and thought filming would be so tyteee. I thought I’d share some stills from some of the footage. My sony a6500 is my fuckin’ baby. Paired with the 30mm sigma lens, gives you buttery smooth bokeh. I also used a fuji eterna 250d LUT, I can’t even remember where I downloaded it. Anyway, check it out.
i’ve dealt with depression for most of my adult life and i’ve learned not to really tell people about it, only people i’m close to. otherwise, when i discussed it openly, it was only used against me to make fun of me. i’ve also stopped trying to be a self-deprecating asshole towards myself and mask my discomfort with dumb self-hate jokes because people will quickly feel okay with joking about it with me and i think overall, that creates a climate where depression is not taken seriously. so i had to stop.
and honestly not making jokes about myself has made me feel a lot more better about myself. i still do every now and then, but it’s no longer who i am. i’m forcing myself to try and be positive about things more often..even though half the time it might be a false positive haha. but fake it til you make it.
i guess that’s why people who are depressed, a lot of their friends or family would be like, wow! they’re always so happy and smiling though!
but i welcome anyone who feels sad to just fuckin feel it. if you wanna talk about it, let’s talk about it. i’ll be there telling you it’ll get better tomorrow. to lay down, to take the day off, etc. don’t submit yourself to doing happy things. do comforting things. just don’t drink a bottle of whiskey.